Be Careful What You "Wish" For

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So, in my last post I mentioned that I was getting "the Big Guy" involved in this diet business.  And so I have.  I should think long and hard about these kinds of decisions because when you open the door and invite God in....whoooo-boy!  You'd better be ready.

Several times in the last week I've been in situations, the last of which was Bible study last night, where I was getting God's message LOUD and CLEAR, thank you.  Suffice it to say that God has been telling me (in no uncertain terms) to get with the program, that I am messing up spiritually and physically.  You want to talk uncomfortable?  Try being the only fat person in a room when the lesson turns to the sinful nature and how anything that takes up our thoughts and keeps us from God is a sin....and overeating is everyone's favorite example.  You know God's talking to you and you're already squirming in your seat from that....and then everyone in the room is looking at you and trying to look like they're not.

Conviction is not fun, but it will lead to better places, so......convict on, God.  I didn't like the feelings I had last night.  I really hated them, in fact.  I don't ever want them again.  So, time to get down to business.

Getting the Big Guy Involved

.....and I'm not talking about my husband, though it would be nice if he'd jump on the diet and exercise bandwagon with me (wouldn't hurt his 51-year-old self with that horrible family health history, either).  Nope, I'm talking about THE big man, the Man Upstairs, God.

If you know me or follow my main blog you know I'm a Christian and not a wishy-washy one.  I'm a pretty devoted follower and trying to improve all the time.  So it's a bit of a mystery why I've kind of left God out of the whole diet thing.

Oh, I pray about it in a (very) general way when I pray "big" in the mornings or at night, but you know how you throw out all those one sentence prayers on the fly all day long...the ones that are the nitty gritty of daily living?  Those are the ones I don't seem to shoot up in search of diet or exercise help.  Well, unless you want to count the please-don't-let-me-die ones I shot up last Fall when working with a trainer.

If I'm going to succeed at this I need to rectify that.  So, I am officially opening a dialog with God on the subject.  Just letting you know.

What's My Motivation Now?

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Well, I'm looking for a new diet goal/motivation.  The Toby Keith concert isn't happening.  Well, I may still get to go, but I will be in regular seats if I do and the Meet & Greet part will be up to the whims of the fan club.  I was worried about having $600 for a pair of tickets (that's what it cost last year) and last night I found out prices went up.  WAY up!  It's now $775 for ONE ticket!  Wow.  No one sings good enough to justify paying that much.

Ellen said I should keep July 27 as a goal, Toby or not.  That sounds reasonable....just not nearly as motivating as getting that new picture was going to be.  I really wanted a picture of a not fat me with him.

Pssst!  Hey, Toby...you come from a working class background, what's with these prices??  In this economy the fans can't afford it!  I hate to think you're weeding out the riffraff.   C'mon, throw your fans a bone. I think you can afford it.

What's Up?

Sorry I've been absent this week.  It's been a rough week.  If you read my main blog you know I lost my beloved poodle on Monday.  It was sudden and hard to take.  It still doesn't seem real.

Anyway....

That first day, I took our other dog for a walk to celebrate my poodle's life....and because the other dog is quite overweight and I don't think I can stand losing another pet any time soon.  Since then he and I have walked faithfully every day.  Unfortunately, I think walking will be on hold for the weekend due to the hideous weather headed this way.  High winds, dropping temps, rain, snow.....the works!  I bought batteries for the computer on my exercise bike last night, though, so I'll be doing that instead.

I did some grocery shopping last night.  I tried to be very health conscious about it.  Lots of fruits and veggies, yogurt, etc.  The only munchies were pretzels and popcorn...the kind you make in the air popper.

On another note, I ordered myself a Fluidity Bar after watching the infomercial the other day.  Another piece of equipment is just what I need right?  Actually, after watching the whole program I was impressed.  It's all about strength training using your own body weight, which is exactly what I was doing with the trainer back in the fall.  I can't wait for it to get here.  I liked that workout.  Well, except for the squats and lunges.  LOL

Oh, I almost forgot.  I have myself an accountability partner in my bloggy friend, Ellen.

What is it about this time of the year that makes me CRAVE carbs?  Not just a little, but like, I'm going to kill something to get some!

Okay, starting to wrap my mind around this thing.

Breakfast:  1 pkg. instant maple/brown sugar oatmeal, 6oz. Diet Coke.

Snack:  1 heart-shaped sugar cookie (darn you Valentine's Day)

Lunch:  1 can Progresso beef/veggie soup, 10 saltines, 12oz. Diet Coke

I've Only Got Five Months

Ugh.  Even though this winter hasn't been bad in terms of temperatures or snowfall I've turned into a slug.  My motivation flew the coop before Christmas and has yet to make a reappearance. I heard news the other day, though, that has something stirring in my gut.

If you recall, back in September I got to meet my favorite country music singer, Toby Keith, and get my picture taken with him.  I was sooooo excited.  Then I saw the picture.  I had been feeling really good, strong, and even a little.....sexy!  But that picture, oh, that picture.  It told the real truth.  I still had a very, very long way to go.  I hated that when I got to meet Toby I looked like that so I determined to lose a lot of weight and go back for another picture this year.

I found out a couple of days ago that Toby will be in Pittsburgh on July 27.  That's 5 months from now.  I don't yet know if there will be VIP tickets and meet 'n' greets available this time, but I guess I'd better get serious and get busy just in case.  I won't be able to lose what I hoped to lose, but I can make a big dent if I work hard (and learn to say no to junk food).

Okay, this is last year.  This is what I'm working with.
Would like to see 50 lbs. gone by July 27.
I'd like to see more, but I'm being realistic.

New motto:  Nothing tastes as good as taking up less space beside Toby will feel!